I am a big fan of your original thinking about mental health and psychiatry. I see your point perfectly--that your disassociation was a survival strategy that worked for you. The problem with psychiatry is they don't know how their meds work and they don't know how human minds work and they don't honor the vast diversity of the species, but instead try to force us all to conform to limited ideas of what "appropriate" human behavior is, when sometimes one needs to be inappropriate to get your needs met. This was a deep and powerful read.