I also fooled myself into thinking I liked a man who date raped me for similar reasons--it seemed to preserve my dignity. But really, it's a brainwash society does to girls, making anything bad that happens to them seem to be their own fault, exonerating the male perpetrators. I'm glad you saw through the BS and found truth. Thanks for this piece! Hopefully, it will help others to do the same a little sooner--maybe even before it happens.